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3.11.2012

No! I Don't Wanna!

Being a Christian is hard. Honestly, being a non-believer is much, much easier, because sometimes God asks things of you that you really just don't want to do. Like really don't want to do. Impossible seeming things.

I don't know how God speaks to other people. I think everyone can hear Him speak if they listen. Maybe each person "hears" differently... I don't know. But He literally speaks to me, like talks in an audible voice that I can hear. And no. I'm not crazy. He does this because He knows I'm hard headed, I'm a skeptic, and seeing the amazing world around me and hearing the wind or some crap like that just isn't enough for me.... I can't believe in "signs" and such, I don't trust that. I need a voice directing me and He knows this - (and yes, I know that I'm probably the brattiest of his children). It's not often that I hear Him, and no... it's not in a "get a gun and kill everyone at the mall" kind of way either. He talks to me when He needs to. I've not shared this with many people because when I do they a). Think I'm off my rocker, or b). Ask me what he's said... and I just feel like my relationship with him is personal. Which leads me to this...

Today He asked me to do something that I don't know if I can do. The Bible asks us to spread the Word. Well I am not pushy when it comes to being a Christian because that personally turns me away faster than anything else in the universe. So I don't generally talk to people about it other than to ask questions when I have them... but I don't push my faith on others. Ok, so maybe sometimes I'll post a cool verse on FaceBook for everyone to see, but only on my own wall... I don't go throwing it at people who I know don't want to hear it. But other than that, I don't try to let people know about God and I don't really talk about it with people who aren't Christians. I just don't. So not only did He ask me to share my faith, what He asked is pretty daunting for me. I'm pretty sure for any other Christian in the world it would be the simplest thing. But nope. Not for me. This just feels like a huge crappy burden to me. Ughhh... Seriously?!

Being a Christian is hard. Honestly, being a non-believer is much, much easier, because sometimes God asks things of you that you really just don't want to do. Like really don't want to do. Impossible seeming things. But I'm going to do what He's asked of me. So any believers out there, the whole reason I posted this... Will ya' pray for me? I could really use it.

©Flippa Bird
(Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends.)
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1 comment:

  1. I have always found this the hardest part of being a Christian as well. But, he doesn't command you to go door to door and make people listen. There are ways to bring him up in conversations that aren't too uncomfortable. I have found myself in respectable debates about faith and Christianity by simply saying I believe in God. I wish you luck. Yes, it is much simpler to be a non-believer...but I like my life so MUCH better as a believer. It is a blessing to have Him in my life and I know from experience how hard it is to live without Him once you truly know Him. Good luck!

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